The GOP cite a “gap” problem in the Kavanaugh scandal, when the real problem is the GOP.
Both Christine Blasey Ford, Deborah Ramirez amd Julie Swetnick report gaps in their memory of their traumatic events.
They must therefore be remembering it “wrong” claim their detractors. Supporters of Brett Kavanaugh are clinging onto that nugget with all their uninformed might convinced it points to the women’s obvious lying.
All it does is point to their ignorance of traumatic memory.
Trauma is processed by the brain differently than other ordinary events and “gaps” don’t detract from the truth and accuracy of the pieces of memory the victims do have. The central details remain, haunting their victims decades after the event.
I know. I have them
As memory and trauma becomes part of our current national dialogue it is worth another look at a post from the vault :
Remembering What Was Forgotten-Traumatic Memory, PTSD and Childhood Sexual Abuse
My memory leads a double life of knowing and not knowing at the very same time. It is a constant, exhausting battle. This is a story about memory gone awry; about traumatic memory and its effect on memory functions and post traumatic stress disorder.
I was sexually abused as a child by a family member. Here’s why I didn’t remember.
Among friends, I am the go to person when it comes to history and trivia, priding myself on my steel trap of a memory.
How then can someone “forget” an event as traumatic as childhood sexual abuse?
Simply put, trauma affects a variety of memory functions and dissociation is one such disruption.
Memory has to do with recording, storage and recall of information perceived from the internal and external environment. Dissociation is an effective defense walling off what cannot be tolerated and storage and retrieval of memory is affected as the actual memory goes into the deep freeze. Detail “Remembering What Was Forgotten-Traumatic Memory, PTSD and Childhood Sexual Abuse” collage by Sally Edelstein
Childhood sexual abuse can create negative disturbances of memory such as dissociation and PTSD leading to problems in basic memory encoding, storage, and retrieval.
Being abused by a trusted family member is the perfect opportunity for the victim to create information blockage. Memory blocking is not to avoid suffering, but because not knowing about abuse by a parent is necessary for survival.
But the body remembers.
Detail “Remembering What Was Forgotten-Traumatic Memory, PTSD and Childhood Sexual Abuse” collage by Sally Edelstein
With PTSD, traumatic memories become dissociated, fragmented, free-floating in time. They pounce into the present unbidden in the form of flashbacks, nightmares intrusive thoughts and images you cannot control.
I search my memory bank for a coherent, narrative filled with nuance and detail but that is not how traumatic memory is.
Those who expect a linear and logical account, seem to think of memory as akin to a Netflix stream; click on a title and sit back for a streaming documentary, a clear-cut representation of what transpired as though a camera had been there filming the whole time. That sadly is far from the reality.
I am missing the explicit narrative of information necessary to make sense of the distressing body sensations and images.
Memories of the trauma tend to be predominantly experienced as fragments of the sensory components of the event as visual images, olfactory, auditory, body sensations, out of context feelings and intense waves of feeling.
Implicit and Explicit Memory
For people with PTSD, traumatic events are remembered differently than non traumatic events.
They are not actually remembered in the normal narrative sense. Usually memory implies the relegation of an event into one’s history. “I remember when.” Where explicit memory depends on language, implicit memory bypasses it. Implicit memory is non verbal, unconscious, somatic. I have no words.
Dissociation and Fragmentary Nature of Traumatic Memories
Detail “Remembering What Was Forgotten-Traumatic Memory, PTSD and Childhood Sexual Abuse” collage by Sally Edelstein
Children and adults who have been abused cope by using a variety of psychological mechanisms.
One effective way to cope with overwhelming trauma is dissociation, the immediate blanking out of reality so that memories are not stored in the first place, not in a narrative, coherent way. Dissociation is an effective defense walling off what cannot be accommodated and actual memory goes into the deep freeze.
Memory in The Absence of Memory
In dissociation elements of the experience are not integrated into a whole but stored in memory as isolated fragments, sensory perceptions, intrusive images, behavior and body sensations.
With PTSD I am missing the explicit narrative of information necessary to make sense of the distressing body sensations and images.
I am a storyteller without a story with a beginning, middle, and end.
But I now have an opportunity to tell my story.
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